whose separation anxiety is worse?

for the past 2 months i've been counting down the days to hawaii and have been SO excited. now that it's almost here, while i am obviously still so so stoked, i've been thinking more about how badly i am going to miss soda (i miss her already) and am worried about leaving her. i actually cried last night thinking about it. i hope she does okay. i hope she's happy and has fun playing with other dogs. i hope she eats (sometimes she doesn't if i'm not home). i hope she doesn't think i'm abandoning her. :( i want her to have fun and play all day, then get to her room and eat all her food because she's so hungry from playing, and then fall asleep because she's so tired from playing. she's just so spoiled here; she's like my child. she's used to falling asleep cuddled up in a soft warm bed on a pillow and snuggled in blankets. it just kind of breaks my heart to think that she might be lonely and confused as to why i left her. i hope she doesn't think she did anything wrong. even writing this is making me so sad. the good part is that her room has a webcam so i can spy on her all i want. shane told me to tell her that i'll be watching over her and that will make her more comfortable :) he is such a sweetheart. i'm so lucky to have him and soda in my life. i'm so grateful for both of them and love them both so much. and, despite all this anxiety about soda, i am still SOOOO freaking giddy for hawaii!!! :D:D :D :D :D